pstlyfdiva's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- do what you can, with what you have, where you are well, got all the tax stuff figured out. c is getting enough back to cover my taxes, plus the obscene credit card bill. 2 down, $Gabillion more to go. i know this will sound strange, since i have been clean for 4 years now, but sometimes i miss the party girl days. you know, not so much for the substances, but for the total lack of responsibilities. i don't really miss the lifestyle, if i think about it, just the nights and weekends with nothing to worry about. even if there were things i should have been worrying about, they were numbed by the drug du jour. wow, i can't believe how long ago all that was. in a way it feels like last week and in another it feels like it was a lifetime ago. i guess in a sense it was. i guess i am just feeling overwhelmed. i take too much on myself. i do all of our finances and figure out how to make money "work". i need to include c, she has asked me too...it is just difficult for me. i have trouble relenquishing control. *breathe* i just need to keep in mind the little sign c's aunt gave us: 4:20 p.m. - 2006-02-09 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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